i don't knw i try to forget i try to hide but those feeling just keep coming back... i still belive in God no matter what happen... my faith will never disappear no matter what happen.... no matter how much hurt i have when through...i still belive there is a reason for everythings... i love him more then my dad... but y do i still have all this feeling the feeling of emptiness... so many day have past i just don't get use to it... no more oversea calll... no more shopping that let me buy everything i want no more laughter that can heard... all this thing became eco...a place where i can only dream of now...i just want to be a daddy expensive girl once more just one more day i will be happy i will cherish all this percious moment.. how i wish how i wish.... i always ask y me? y my dad? such a good person out of 10 only 2 daddy are this good.... whose daddy cook for u whose daddy will go lady shopping with u whoes daddy will listen to ur 2 hur of crap every week? and spend all the expensive money? i tell u who? is mine...i am the one who have this type of dad... but only for 17 years... my brother? only for 11 years.... in one part of china ppl average of years of living is 120 and my dad is 50... it not even half of 120.... y yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy y must this be so unfair...... Dear God heaven i always serve u with all my heart? y must u take him away from us......... pls let me just have one more day , one more hur or even one more min... i just want to say I LOVE U DAD